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Since I met most of you all when I was 12 on the AOL forum VGA for Final Fantasy III and I just turned 30 it sort of means you all are old now.



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Wow, I'm sorry. You seem pretty high functioning though, not like my brother at all.

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Hello. I hope you are okay with the discovery. I don't know if by autism you mean on the autistic spectrum, such as Asperger's Syndrome but it is something I have read quite a lot about.

I had a good friend in High School and after who clearly has Asperger's Syndrome. Some time back we had a mutual "friend" who said he didn't like him because he was "autistic". Which rubbed me the wrong way. At some point, I told him and he had a hard time dealing with the fact that I told him, or basically that I called him Asperger, or that I knew or that we all knew and I somehow confronted him about it in the process.

He had, or I should say has, a very strict, overbearing mother (and an abusive step-father growing up; both physically and mentally) and I'm honestly not sure they ever really told him or made him face his Asperger's. I think they treat it as if it is a disability, which, in my opinion is wrong. He lashed out at me for telling him, acting as if I were trying to hurt or harm him. Which really hurt me, because of all his friends, I truly enjoy him for who he is and never judged him or made fun of him and I find him to be an incredibly intelligent, talented person.

It is odd, too, since I met a woman a couple years ago while in a line at a coffee shop, who, upon not understanding a sarcastic joke I made, came right out and said "I can't tell if you are being serious or making a joke because I just found out I have Asperger's syndrome and I have trouble understanding sarcasm sometimes" to which I replied it was a joke, and she then laughed and we talked for a few minutes. It was a very odd but enjoyable exchange.

Anyway, I hope I haven't been too forward with this post (or off-topic if you aren't Asperger but on a different part of the spectrum) and I know of a youtube channel in which an "Aspie" female, as she calls herself, frequently talks about her condition. It is very intense and I think she is a remarkable person. Here is the link:

TheAnMish

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Hello. I hope you are okay with the discovery. I don't know if by autism you mean on the autistic spectrum, such as Asperger's Syndrome but it is something I have read quite a lot about.

I had a good friend in High School and after who clearly has Asperger's Syndrome. Some time back we had a mutual "friend" who said he didn't like him because he was "autistic". Which rubbed me the wrong way. At some point, I told him and he had a hard time dealing with the fact that I told him, or basically that I called him Asperger, or that I knew or that we all knew and I somehow confronted him about it in the process.

He had, or I should say has, a very strict, overbearing mother (and an abusive step-father growing up; both physically and mentally) and I'm honestly not sure they ever really told him or made him face his Asperger's. I think they treat it as if it is a disability, which, in my opinion is wrong. He lashed out at me for telling him, acting as if I were trying to hurt or harm him. Which really hurt me, because of all his friends, I truly enjoy him for who he is and never judged him or made fun of him and I find him to be an incredibly intelligent, talented person.

It is odd, too, since I met a woman a couple years ago while in a line at a coffee shop, who, upon not understanding a sarcastic joke I made, came right out and said "I can't tell if you are being serious or making a joke because I just found out I have Asperger's syndrome and I have trouble understanding sarcasm sometimes" to which I replied it was a joke, and she then laughed and we talked for a few minutes. It was a very odd but enjoyable exchange.

Anyway, I hope I haven't been too forward with this post (or off-topic if you aren't Asperger but on a different part of the spectrum) and I know of a youtube channel in which an "Aspie" female, as she calls herself, frequently talks about her condition. It is very intense and I think she is a remarkable person. Here is the link:

TheAnMish

Months later I'm still learning about myself and what this diagnosis means and more or less why I am who I am. It seems normal humans who many autistic people refer to as neurotypical as your growing up other than communicating via sight, sound, touch, smell you all have a hidden way of communicating that you were taught as most others are taught unknowingly.

For autistic people even high functioning autistics we missed this important lesson or rather we do not understand or communicate in the same way that makes you human. Which means more often than not we miss social queues and structures. Also people feel odd around us or a different "vibe" because that way of subconsciously communicating and the other party communicating back is missing in our part and we come off as strange.

A great example would be you telling me you'll see me tomorrow and you saying it in a way or meaning it in a way that I should know you do not want to see me again but I do not know and take you for your word.

In a way we think in terms of black and white... Never grey. If anything the autism community is huge we have our quirks.

Overall it's very confusing and explains why I often feel like there is a bubble in social groups and I do not fit in. They call our predicament 'mind blindness'

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Wow, I'm sorry. You seem pretty high functioning though, not like my brother at all.

Nothing to be sorry about this is just how I exist. I am high functioning which has led me to this point in not getting the proper care. I take on the archetype of, 'The Actor' which is an autistic people who by means of trying to cope with a world so different develops scripts and controls movements and facial expressions to try to fit in.

This has led me to walk into jobs with people thinking they are on undercover boss. For some people once you really get to know me or talk to me for long periods of time you know I am differen. I knew I was different but in ways in denial for a long time

This post has been edited by His Shadow on 27th September 2015 15:28

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