It's worth throwing in a note here that while it seems simple, actually attaining that quiet reflection requires real work. My wife, for instance, has a very difficult job that she also throws her whole self into. As a result of that combined with her normal personality, she struggles mightily to get to a place where she can turn that off for any length of time.

The point is that while some form of meditation, no matter how or where you execute it, is not necessarily a simple thing, but it's worth trying and continuing to try until you can find your own comfort level with it.

I remember only bits and pieces of your overall story, but from what I can recall, I do think that at least trying to talk it out with someone qualified, be it a therapist, counselor, or whatever that person might be called, would be an excellent first step. Sometimes just the act of talking unlocks some things in your own mind that you never considered before.

There various (theoretically healthy) methods and techniques that people can employ to try and deal with situations life throws at them, from meditation, to yoga, to therapy (which can itself take many forms). The difficulty is that different things work differently for different people. They key is finding what works for you.

If you've recently been pushing through barrier after barrier, you may have left part of yourself 'behind' - in that, for example, your emotional side has perhaps not been able to keep pace. It may be a good time for some self reflection to bring yourself to balance before pushing through the next barrier. I know that it's not always feasible depending on cost/availability, but a good psychotherapist could help guide you in bringing about that balance?

I'd be careful giving advice like this if you aren't an expert. It's unfounded and you could be hurting more than you're helping.

Did I do that right?

I don't know, seems like that is as delicate as possible. I see a lot of "perhaps," "may," "could" in there and not a lot of "clearly you need to do what I say." OP asked for advice and got it, and I didn't see anyone in the thread implying that there was only one solution and that the only good advice was the advice being given by that person.

I think people are trying to help in good faith. But I'm not an expert, so I guess maybe the better solution is to delete all the replies and lock the thread so that OP doesn't get any feedback?